The love 11

Dumb struck May leaning on the headboard of her bed. She can't forget what happened in the evening.

"What should I do now? How about pack a bag and leave with Tareq! Is it really going to solve the problem or will make it worse. Throughout my whole life, I have been escaping. Never had the guts to face the world on my own or fight back. Even that night when Farabi approached me for the first time. I knew it was wrong.. very wrong. But couldn't stop it. The mind became paralyzed and the body became alive. The aftermath was equally horrible except Tareq.  "

  

May closed her eyes and a drop rolled down her cheek. 

   ' I don't think I am ready to go through this all over again. That portion of heart is closed forever. 

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One hour ago,

 Annoyed May cracked the door enough to see who is it. 

"Assalamualaikum", greetings from a deep voice.

The voice sounded familiar but not the person. May doesn't have any family memeber with beard. May be he is from the mosque, May told herself.

Replying the salam, May went to get her father.

"Assalamualaikum, how can I help you?" Shuruq extended his hand toward the the man sitting in the living room. 

"I am Zakaria, Farabi's cousin."

Shuruq frowned. " If you are here to talk on behalf of your cousin then please leave. I don't want that accident to be repeated in May's life again."

" I am not here to talk about Farabi. I am here to talk about myself. Look I neither want to talk indirectly nor trying to hide anything. I want to marry May, of course if that is okay with both of you."

After a brief pause, Zakaria continued." I know you probably thinking  what is my intention behind marrying her.  Through the past years, there wasn't a single day that I didn't regret what I did that day. If I wouldn't request Farabi's family to bring me here then May wouldn't be in a situation like this today."

At this point, May started talking from behind the curtain. She just couldn't take it anymore.

" That's why you came here to save the Damsel in distress. Why do you think I would ever agree to marry you? You two are from the same family. I am sure, you two probably have the same mentality. Now you are saying that you feel bad by putting me through this. What if I wouldn't be in this situation, then you wouldn't regret?"

 

Zakaria didn't have the answer for it.

May continued," whatever happened to me, part of it was my fate and part of it was the punishment for the sins I have committed. I have accepted it. I don't need anyone to come and be the savior."

Zakaria wiped his forehead. " There is not a single day I ask forgiveness from Allah. I know I was wrong. Please give me a chance. I want to do something for you and Tareq."

" So you want me to be your way of redemption. Your forgiveness is with the almighty. I don't think I am mentally ready to even think about such steps in my life. About Tareq, alhamdulillah we are fine together. To have a better life, you don't need people. What you need is the almighty who can guide you through everything and help you in every possible and impossible way. I think I have made my point. You may leave." May turned around to go back to her room. Jamila stopped her.

"You might not need the society or anyone but we do. Almost every single family in this area knows that you had an affair with Zacharia. You two knew each other and lived in the same house for some time. So what is the point of pretending to be pious now. I am sure Farabi and his parents noticed something. They wouldn't blame you out of thin air."

May looked at her mom, her eyes are about to be swelled with tear. " You don't believe me mom?"

"I don't believe you because I know you. If you can sleep with Farabi before marriage, you can sleep with anyone." Jamila replied. " It's just the begining. Who knows what else do you do covering everything. It's just a matter of time before your other boyfriends start knocking on our door. "

"Jamilah" shuruq yelled. "You are crossing your limit. It's not only May's fault that she fell for Farabi, it's your fault as well. As a mother you should've stopped her. Instead you pushed her with Farabi for your own interest. About Zacharia, I trust May. If I hear one more word from you, I swear, you will be out of this house. I don't need a poison like you in my house."

" Zacharia, may be want to help May and Tareq. But your thoughts are all wrong. Marriage is a contract of life time. It's not a joke. You shouldn't marry someone just because you feel guilty. I see that you have changed. I am not that religious person but I can feel you have a long way to go on that path.  I suggest, give it some time and thought. I am sorry, you had to see my family drama, son. I'll see you again."

" I know I have a long way to go. I can't go through it all on my own. I need a partner who will be the partner in every aspect of my life. I know May, you don't need me to have a better life. But I need you to have a better life. I am not asking you to be my girlfriend. I am asking you to be my wife and Tareq to be my son. I know I said that I feel regret and guilt, these are the only feelings that I am allowed to have before marriage May. I suggest, please pray on this. Don't rush with the decision. Please!" Zakaria left with a Salam.

To be continued.....